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I think all those unsent chain letters are catching up with me. It will be 8794387943 years before I ever find true love and I will have bad days for the rest of my life. Thanks Myspace..

I’d have to say that Antique Roadshow is my favorite thing to watch on TV, hands down.

I can’t deny that I’m not at least a little bit upset about what happened tonight.  If you don’t remember, I entered a juried photography gallery show. The reception was tonight. As you might sense, I didn’t win. I may be stroking my own ego, but I at least thought i deserved an honorable mention. I don’t know. I ended up approaching the the Juror to get some feedback on my two pieces. Apparently my ideas are extremely wonderful, but i lack technical skill. I always knew that. I’m not the smartest when it comes to remembering the zone system or even following the “rules” of photography. I just sort of figured that if my ideas were great i could work on the technical stuff later.  Out of 74 entries I was the only one with who did my processing in the darkroom.The process of silver gelatin prints are seriously underrated. My  not as sharp compared to digital prints weren’t appreciated. I guess you can say I’m a tad bitter. It makes me wonder if I’m actually good enough to do photography. I’m a bit self conscious when it comes to my work. Now I’m going to be up most of the night worring if I’m good enough or what I can change. Or if I’m good at anything. Oh shit…

I think I now understand why men tend to lie to girls about small things.

 Apparently I’m in the doghouse with one of my more girlie friends. Yesterday She came up to me and asked how her outfit looked. She wanted to know if she looked nice in the skinny jeans she was wearing. I said she looked fine but her shoe choice wasn’t the best. She asked what I meant by that. Again I said the jeans looked fine but her shoes looked funny paired with them. Any logical person would have understood that skinny jeans just make your feet look funny. That’s why I don’t wear that particular style of jeans for that reason, that and my body type. So I thought everything was fine up until a couple of hours ago. I get approached by another friend of mine, L., that happens to be the other girls roommate. She asked me why I told M. that her outfit was ugly and she looked dumb. WAIT? WHAT? When did I ever say that? I guess M. was mad and threw a fit about it later to her roommates. Other roommate B., then decides to state that I am a bitch and don’t have any style or taste anyway so she shouldn’t ask me. Talk about crazy. So all in all I’m a bitch that doesn’t have any style or taste. But hey at least I’m honest.

I always get this bad feeling that when I take my recycling out that it’s not going to the right place. I have this eerie feeling that the garbage man is like “FUCK YOU, HIPPIE!!” as he slings my recyclables into the back of his truck and drives away.

I guess it’s about time for a real update rather than re-blogging things, posting pictures, and saying nonsense. Today I turned in some photos to a judged gallery showing. The reception is on the 24th and I’m crazy excited. I’m not really expecting to win anything. I am more excited for the community to see my artwork. I think that’s the most important thing, although I am very nervous.

I’m in my second week of the new semester and am already tired of school. Last week I had a terrible day and had to bitch some chick out for throwing away 5 of my paintings. She wont look me in the eye when i see her in the hall way. I’m not usually a mean person but I’m sure you can understand the circumstances.

Make-up News: I am super excited for the production my school is putting on this spring. It is Mozart’s opera, “The Magic Flute” I have been told it is extremely boring so i need to make it as visually interesting as possible. I had a meeting tonight with the costume director and i am super stoked. I get to try out so many products I’ve never worked with before and i can’t wait! One of the things i need to work on more this semester is doing more with my talent. I need more models to practice some of the scary ideas i have planned in my head.

Other news:

I received an exciting opportunity from something I’m pretty heavily involved with. I can’t say too much more because I don’t want to jinx it, but none the less I am very excited and i hope everything pans out. It sucks waiting though.

you’re a crutched little nancy-boy if you use one and i don’t want to be friends with you until you pull your head out of your ass and switch to primes. then we can be friends again :) — superdoofus-stratodrive

I think we were meant to be bffs …

Today were the first day of classes of 2008. Holy shit, I’m screwed so bad. I’m taking 5 Art classes 3 being photography classes and 5 of those 3 are advanced classes. I am so screwed.

One thing that I am kinda of disappointed in is that in one of my classes i can’t use film. I have to use a new Nikon d300. Maybe I’m bitching too much but i have completely started to resent digital photography. Don’t get me wrong I love when others do it but when it comes to me actually using a digital camera now a days I feel disgusted. I just love my fully manual Nikon FM-10. I love the smell of the darkroom. And I love having made something from start to finish. I love the time and the patience it takes to printing and developing. If it were up to me I’d never use digital again as a serious photographer.

This is going to be a busy semester and the circles under my eyes are going to get darker and darker. Thank god i got that under eye cream for Christmas.

Im home. yay!

New years resolution:

To beat my high score on tetris.